Saturday, January 12, 2008

Dear God,

I've always been hesitant, holding back. Just a bit afraid. What if? I've never opened the door wide open for others. Oh yes, wide enough, wide enough to pass through and catch a glimpse of the great spirit beyond. Wide enough for an experience with you. But all the way? Not yet.

I ask myself what I am afraid of. Failure? Foolishness? Rejection? Mockery? I think I have too much of my own self in the way. Maybe too much invested. Maybe too much at stake. Maybe I'm afraid I'll frighten people. Maybe something will happen.

What if I swung the door wide open? What if people grasped for what they saw, then allowed the bonding chains to be broken? What if people were truly liberated, enabled to take hold of a new life? What if persons decided to grow in a new way? What if people fulfilled your vision for their lives, their destiny? What if?

What if I didn't hold back but gave it all to you for your purposes? What if I realized I really didn't have the right to hold back, but instead needed to live the role of liberator, liberator of spirit? What if?

Oh God,
these are the days,
the days of hope,
the days of power,
spirit power
unleashed.
Help me lean,
lean in to you,
lean in to your plan,
lean in to liberation.

Love, Andrea