Saturday, July 18, 2009

Dear God,

I had planned to attend my 45th high school reunion. Just an hour away I was too weak to drive, to enjoy the festivities so I stayed home. I was sad and very disappointed but health issues wouldn't permit it.

Life lessons come in so many ways. It seems right now I am learning many life lessons all at the same time. I am learning to find the good in the bad, the positive in the negative, the hope in the hopeless. In other words in difficult situations I am learning to trust you. I will never get everything I want. That is the design. What I do receive, however, is something more than I requested. If I can't be with my high school friends, I can spend more time with you. If I want an expression of love, I can receive the most beautiful gestures of love from grandchildren. If I feel hopeless and ask for help, I suddenly am infused with hope that I know comes from a prayer being prayed somewhere in the world. I am told that many people are praying for me. If I can't be at home, then I am challenged to find my home in you.

Life lessons are messages from you. No road is a dead end. No hope is completely destroyed. Even hope can be regenerated. The abyss does have a bottom. At some point the downward spiral ends. Then the only way is up. Even if joy is not momentarily felt, there is a place in every human soul where joy resides. During an unexpected moment joy will burst from the soul.

Since my life goal is to be faithful to you, then I need to live in life lessons. I need to listen more, trust more, live more, hope more. You are the author of life lessons. Teach me to lean toward you, to trust more.

Let every situation
teach me
to trust you.
Let life lessons come.
Teach me
your ways,
I pray.

Love, Andrea