Thursday, November 5, 2009

Dearest God,

There are times when you call me to step forward; at other times the call is to step back. When I know you are at work and your will is being fulfilled, I have to step back even when I want to step forward. Today I reluctantly stepped back.

Your will is so important to me. I have been praying for your will to be done. But I must confess the picture I had in my mind looks different than the way your will is unfolding. My temptation is to step in, to change things just a bit, just a teeny bit to make my vision possible. But I can't. I must resist because I do not want to get in the way of your will being done.

Like watching a child make a mistake that they will learn from, it is very difficult to let go and allow someone to make the lonely pilgrimage. Yet, what is faith if not trusting you to do your will in my life and also in the lives of those I love the most?

Dear Lord, lead me in the dance of life, where you lead and I follow. Teach me when to step forward and when to step back. Please give me courage to stand by when you dance with others. Lead me, Lord, lead me, dear God, I pray.

You are
so gracious,
so loving,
farsighted,
and full of
grace and hope.
Let your will
be done,
dear God;
hold me back.
Teach me
to follow,
to follow,
to follow,
dear God,
I pray.

Love, Andrea