Monday, March 22, 2010

Dearest God,

I have been on a search for you nearly my whole life, close to 64 years. Almost five years ago I began an intentional trek to look for you every day and report back my findings. What I discovered early on was that the journey was not really about me uncovering you as much as you revealing yourself to me, to others, to the universe. Each day as I prepared to write, I found that the themes, topics, ideas, and visions really came from you. This blog has always been about you.

One of your early whisperings to me had to do with how to experience faith and how to pass it on to others. Faith is not something I learned on my own. I can take little credit for any part of it. I had teachers, mentors and models, even situations that taught me spiritual truths. Along the way, I simply said yes to you and faith came to life in me.

I realized again today how courage is kin to faith. In a memorial service for a humble Christian man, I listened to his son's eulogy when he talked about his father as a courageous man. He defined courage as "fear prayed up." That made me think when I am courageous or I act courageously, I am trusting you to help me rise to do something I may feel I am not quite capable of doing on my own. When I am afraid and take a courageous step forward to do the thing I think I cannot do alone, I feel a divine strength. Faith is borne in such a movement. As I operate out of faith and courage, like the humble man, I too pass along faith to others.

As I am obedient to your lead, I am confident that faith will find me more and more often. I will be captured by the revelation of your presence, your loving ways, your healing power, your miraculous bending of history, your helpful challenges, and your transforming abilities. As I allow myself to be moved by you, others will be moved, inspired as well.

You are
power exemplar.
You hold
the power
of faith
and love,
the same thing.
I am
so grateful
that my quest
for your presence
always leads me
to you,
Glorious and Wonderful God.

Love, Andrea