Wednesday, April 14, 2010

My dear God,

I love the dawn. I love the blackness that fades into whiteness. I love looking out my windows into the darkness and then watch it change as the light begins ever so slowly to penetrate and shine.

Sometimes I think about how darkness can be so pervasive in human life. In that darkness the human soul stumbles, feeling the weight of sin, grief, confusion or torment. The darkness can be a scary place especially if it lasts for a long time. There are moments when the light may be shining but because we are so deep in darkness we can't see it.

Your creation gives us clues to human living. Every 24 hours without fail the darkness will come but it will also give way to the light. In fact in most places the light will remain longer than the darkness.

While the darkness may feel threatening you have taught me that significant happenings can take place there. I have learned great life lessons while in the darkness and I have come to realize that the lessons come when the light speaks during that time. It has come as a voice, a calm, serene voice speaking peace, hope and comfort. Although I tense up during dark moments, your voice alone can change me. As I train my ears to listen and my eyes to watch, I can begin to see first outlines of things and then full shapes and finally details. My ability to wait, to draw near, be patient, humble and obedient can give me keys to life around me. Above all, it can give me a greater desire to take your hand, to walk with you, and to even enjoy the journey knowing I am with you.

Teach me,
Lord,
to listen,
to watch,
to anticipate
your presence.
What is life
without you?
An endless journey
of experiences,
happenings,
activities and events
that lack
the agape relationship,
the deeper
sacred meaning
and eternal joy.
Every life
lacks something
of you
without intention.
O dear God,
make my spirit
so amenable
to yours
that I will
with great intention
remain with you.

Love, Andrea