Thursday, May 12, 2011

Dearest God,

More and more when I am sick, I have a peace in you. When something goes wrong, my mind quiets, my heart finds its divine rhythm, and my body stills itself to ride out the crisis. This time spent with you is perhaps the best part of my life.

Learning to be unafraid and trusting in you for out-of-control situations teaches me lessons of faith. When I am unable to manage a physical health problem, I have to trust in you, be faithful to be peaceful, and drink in your life-giving nectar. The more I give myself over to you, the more I learn to trust more deeply. When I fail, wanting to manipulate my well being to be the way I want it to be, I miss the chance to take your hand, to listen to your comforting words, and to take the steps toward physical, emotional, and spiritual wellness. When I come to grips with your gestures of love in the world, I have a much better opportunity to live life the way you intended.

Forgive me
when I
fail you,
O God.
Lift me up,
reminding me
that I
am not
the director
of the cosmos.
You are.
Teach me
to bend,
to lean
toward you,
to trust,
and to obey.

Love, Andrea