Sunday, October 21, 2012

Dearest God,

Some days I confess I don't choose you first.  I choose other things like starting the laundry, picking up the house, sewing special projects, or a vast range of other things.  I opt to do something else instead of praying, writing, or praising you.  I am sorry.

What I know is this:  When I choose something before you, my time with you is not the quality time it can be.    When I allow my mind to be filled with other things, it is hard to focus on my love for you.  When I wait until later in the day to write you, I am not as inspired, challenged, or directed.  I do not always feel your spirit deep within me whispering words of faith to my soul.  I always know when I am distant from you.  I do not like it at all.

When I choose you first, when I begin to pray even before rising in the dark morning, when I set my mind on you rather than a myriad of other things, I sense my faith growing.  I sense a closeness, a deepening relationship.  So much comes to me and I know you are speaking to me.  Those are glorious days, better than any other.

Disciple my mind,
O Lord,
my body,
and soul too.
Remind me
of the benefits
of an
abiding relationship
with you.
Teach me
to prioritize
and to elect
to meet
with you first,
I pray.

Love, Andrea