Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Dear God,

Can utter trust in you really bring joy in every situation?  As we release our worry, our burden, or our concern in your hands, does joy come automatically?

I am reading about gratitude, giving thanks in all situations, focusing on what is rather than what is not.  And if it is true that what is is always a living presence with us, then focusing on your 24/7 care can surely bring relief and joy.

I think back on times when I realized I could not carry a pain any longer, when the weight was so heavy and I was so burdened that I collapsed under it.  When I finally surrendered confessing my lack of faith, my belief in God who is not powerful to change things, and my need to control events, I remember the warmth of mercy that filled me.  Sweet mercy.  Release.  And it is true joy flooded my soul.

Why do
I forget
sometimes, Lord?
Why do
I live
as though
there is
no God?
Why do
I try
to usurp
your power?
Forgive me,
I pray.
Thank you
for joy
that comes
with release.

Love, Andrea