Monday, January 27, 2014

Dear God,

Some days it is valuable to return to memorable scenes in my life, occasions where you were powerfully present.  There have been so many beautiful moments where my excruciating reality was softened and made possible to bear.  I remember the time when you came to me bringing a host of people who aided my severely broken heart.

You know the circumstances of how the situation came to be.  I was put in an extremely difficult position where no matter which decision I would make, there would be loss.  I knew it and fell on my knees before you to make the better choice.  You came to my assistance and helped me.  I was already grieving for what I knew was to come and you visited me in a way I will never forget.

I was on my way to a meeting where the ax would soon fall, where my heart would tear, where I would not be given a way to say goodbye to those I loved with all my heart.  When I fell into a deep sleep while weeping in the back seat of my car, you brought several mothers, several biblical mothers to me. Isaiah's mother, Rebecca, the mother who was willing to give her child to another mother who claimed to be the real mother in order to save the baby when the judge said each could have half the child, Mary, your own mother and others.  Each comforted me with their beautiful stories.  The psalmist came offering words of hope and compassion.  An angelic choir sang to me.  All I know is in a two-hour period there were many, many persons who assisted me in my despair.  When I awakened the driver and my daughter asked me what had happened to me because I was glowing.  I was at peace.  I was filled with you.

It would be thirteen years before the healing would come and we would be reunited but the mystical vision, the visitation would hold me and I would recall your generous gift and again fall to my knees in thanksgiving and praise.

You are generous,
Loving God;
you come
to us.
Thank you
for all
your gifts
that touch
our souls.
Thank you
for love
that wraps
around us
and cradles us
in your arms.
Surely you are
my greatest gift.
I love you.

Forever yours, Andrea