Saturday, July 12, 2014

Dear God,

What expectations do you have of us, O Lord?  What do you hope we will do in this life?

I had to clean my home before about 30 family members came to our home for a reunion.  As I scrubbed the floors on my hands and knees and washed out the toilets, sinks, and showers, I went through quite a transformation.

I was upset about an injustice.  My mind swirled with unkind thoughts.  My attitude was about as unclean as my floors that I did not dirty myself.  I was overwhelmed with disappointment and sadness which, of course, turned to anger and resentment.  But as I spoke to you through my whispered murmurings, you swiftly spoke back returning good for evil every time I said one sentence about those who had hurt me.  When you spoke back, your words reminded me of my great desire to please you.  "I know you want to do what is right and good."  You said.  Then I would back away knowing what I would receive from you if I did what was good would far outweigh any justification I would feel by striking out at others.  All during the day this conversation went on, back and forth, my feelings intensifying.  Although I still feel raw by the injustice, the compassionate mercy you extended to me is helping to heal me as I trust you.

Thank you
for butterfly moments,
those experiences
of transformation.
We can
be different
when we
trust you.
Our hurts
can be healed
as we
join ourselves
to you.
Thank you
for the chance
to make
a powerful witness
of faith.

Love, Andrea