Sunday, February 6, 2022

Dear God,

Perhaps it was simply a technological problem, but I don't think so.  When I tuned in to the worship service at Second Presbyterian Church, I had a lot on my mind.  I was still angry at my husband's family.  So, I was anxious for a meaningful worship service where I could listen for your special word for me and all who would gather.

I turned the computer on earlier than usual because I do not always have great reception or speed here.  I was busy fixing dinner when I heard the choir singing, Be Thou My Vision. For some reason the choir rehearsal was being recorded.  I thought it odd because I had never seen that before.  Because of when I tuned in, the first words I heard were, "Heart of my own heart, whatever befall, still be my vision, O Ruler of All."  Hmm, I thought as I sang along.  I really didn't want to hear the choir director giving instructions so I turned it off to continue with dinner preparations.  A little while later I turned it on again and strangely enough, they were still rehearsing the same song and the words were repeated once more.  "Heart of my own heart, whatever befall, still be my vision, O Ruler of All."  I questioned aloud, "What are the chances of tuning in to the same final verse twice?"  I was beginning to think there was more at play than I thought.

Finally, when the service began, I sat down ready to worship with all who had gathered in the pews.  I listened intently when the preacher began his message.  He was about five minutes into it when I heard him preach the words, "Some say Jesus is Lord but then do not live that truth."  All of a sudden, the service just stopped.   I could see the preacher on the screen but nothing else happened.  I tried for 20 minutes to remedy the situation but to no avail.  That is when I heard you say, "You have already received what you were looking for."  

You were right!  You were absolutely right! The message was loud and clear.  You had spoken profoundly, and I realized all three "strange" moments had given me what I needed.  You are the heart of my own heart.  Things happen to disappoint, distress and perplex but you can't run away because you don't like it.  If I am going to claim Jesus as my Lord, then I have to walk the walk and talk the talk.  Faith is still all about love.

Merciful God,

the ways

you speak

continue to

mystify me.

You use

anything and everything

to speak

to us.

Thank you

again

for speaking

to me.

Love, Andrea