Monday, January 21, 2008

Dear God,

Last night I drew an angel card (or rather the angel picked me). Balance. Oh my goodness, how many years has it taken me to balance my life. I tend to hang heavy on one side or the other.

A balanced life is one where God holds both sides. Family, work, spirituality, health. I have longed for a life where everything is included in my life, in equal parts. I tend to be a workaholic, busy every moment but the last few years have taught me a new way.

Time with grandchildren buoys my playfulness, laughing at myself, dancing little jigs, making up funny stories, sleeping on the floor, singing silly opera. Time in silence keeps my spirit awake, fresh, my spirit eyes roving for the sacred Presence, breathing spirit air that lifts my heart, quickens my spirit. Time in ministry gives me the opportunity to give away, to give back, to respond to everything I've been given. Time well spent (most days).

Balance. When I am balanced, life is easier, more well rounded, blessed. It's when I'm hanging over the precipice that life goes out of whack. Balance, it's good because I am aware that you're holding both sides.

Oh Lord,
to be held,
every part of me
in your hands,
is to live daily
a life in heaven.
No bitter roots
can form here.
No ugly words
can form.
No fighting
for equal time.
Balance,
a full life
with you.

Love, Andrea