Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Dear God,

Like a small child in a candy store, I sat on my patio in the midst of wonder all around me. The air cool, blue sky, white billowy clouds, garden with less weeds, music playing, butterflies fluttering all while I read my Upper Room devotion, drank my coffee and ate breakfast. I felt a tug of your spirit and all I could say was thank you, thank you, thank you.

Some times I feel guilty being happy. I have been so sad for so long that when a quiet smile spreads across my face I wonder if I should allow it. I wonder if it is really okay for me to crawl out of the dark hole for more than an hour or two. I wonder if a life of joy is permissible after a long, long spell of loss, suffering pain and mourning.

As I gazed upon the trees literally changing color before my eyes, I realized again the seasons of change and transformation. As the natural world is shifting one more time, I felt my own soul moving. Perhaps I too can change.

Change my colors,
Lord.
Transform my darkness
into your
glorious light.
Allow me
to radiate
your goodness
in the world.
Let me become
a symbol
of trust,
faith and courage.
Let your voice
be my
only guide,
I pray.

Love, Andrea