Saturday, November 7, 2009

Dear God,

Discovering your will is one thing; living it out is another. Learning to trust sacred instincts is life-giving. Listening for your voice on the wind of your spirit breathes new possibilities. Your will comes as I get in touch with my deepest self. In this movement to the core of my being I trust and listen, praying that your will will be revealed.

What is life if not lived from the deep? I don't want to just skim the surface my whole life long. I am always reminded of the gardener who sowed seeds. Only those seeds that grew deep roots produced. I want to produce faith. I want to live with purpose and intentionality. I want to help change the world for good. I want to dance to the tune of grace, knowing you as my Dance Partner. In doing so I have courage to be obedient, to follow, to live and breathe your spirit into the creation already present but so often invisible. I want to be a visible manifestation of your presence simply by living out your will for my life.

During these last months I have been on a desperate search for your will. I have sought you day and night. I have cried out and celebrated when I saw a glimmer of hope for the future. I have realized that my simple plan is never as great as your elaborate design that takes all things into consideration. As you are working on your will for my life, you are working on the lives of those around me. Only you can know what is best, honorable, good, wise and holy.

In my pursuit of discernment I have learned to draw near, to spend a good deal of time at your feet, anticipating, listening, waiting, knowing the wait is always worth it.

Holy of Holies,
in the sanctuary
of hope,
I breathe in
your grace
and your grace
leads me
to joy.
In this
particular moment
of joy,
I utter
my heartfelt praise.

Love, Andrea