Friday, May 27, 2011

Dear God,

You have brought me so many life lessons. More often than not, they have risen out of the ashes of loss, sorrow, and grief. In those particular moments, you set my face toward you where I listened allowing my tears to flow in trust.

Not every situation in which I find myself am I content. As a child I wanted more. As a teenager, I wanted more emotionally. As a wife and mother, I wanted to be more. Sometimes I dreamed of being somewhere else other than where I was. But in every case you whispered to me the hope that comes out of trust.

As my husband and I talked about where to go on this friday night, we came to the conclusion that we just liked being where we are. He told me while he enjoyed being with others, it was just nice being the two of us at home. We sat on the couch and just smiled at one another.

Like St. Paul you remind me how valuable it is to be content in whatever situation I find myself. Now true, I am not in a refugee camp or living in poverty wondering how I will feed my children. However, you have shown me the benefits of trusting you no matter where I find myself in life circumstances. Every day is not intended to be a perfect day; yet perfect trust can come out of an imperfect day.

Teach me
to be patient,
to live meaningfully
in the
present moment.
I am yours,
O God;
sometimes I forget
and want
to lead
my own life.
I want life
on my
own terms.
But when
I trust
in you,
every day
is more
than I
could have manipulated
on my own.
Remind me daily
to be thankful
and to
trust you.

Love, Andrea