Thursday, August 8, 2013

Dear God,

I fought demons in the night, not devils and monsters but rather fears.  As I prepare to hit the open waters of the ocean on a ferry boat, I find myself fearing the journey from point A to point B.  Choppy waters, they tell me, no view of land, just a dingy of sorts scooting toward an island where I will stay for a week.

I woke up heavy.  I could feel the water around my shoulders.  I never experienced drowning just high waves and the tilt of the ferry boat.  Twice I woke up.  Each time I had to quiet myself in order to get back to sleep.

It was early this morning when I realized this will be my challenge with you.  I always tell you I want to grow in my faith.  I ask you to guide me, help me become all I can be.  But I know I have to accept the challenges as they come.  If I want to increase my faith and love for you, then I need to surrender myself, my whole self into your arms.

Teach me
to follow you,
to steady myself
when I think
of you.
Guide me
to truth
and joy,
I pray.

Love, Andrea