Thursday, November 18, 2021

Dear God,

There is always a line, a space or an obstacle we need to reach before making our final surrender.  There may be many other things, thoughts, judgments or old habits we seemingly have to wade through before we reach that last step, the last stop on the way to release.  I think I finally figured out what hinders me from that last piece is admitting, confessing I am afraid.  

There I have said it.  I am afraid.  I am afraid of putting myself on the vulnerable line.  I am afraid of being hurt, injured again.  I am afraid of loss.  I lost so much before; I just don't want to face that again.

Now that I have finally confessed the line is fear, I realize the absurdity of my fear.  I don't have to be afraid because loss only brings more gain.  When I face loss, you come to me giving me more of yourself.  Whatever gaping hole I have in my soul is filled up more with you and no one can give more.

Oh God,

thank you

for this realization.

Thank you

for bringing me

to this place.

Thank you

for reminding me

the greatest filling

is always you.

Thank you,

Merciful God.

Love, Andrea