Saturday, December 20, 2025

Dear God,

I strained to see the light but it was black; blackness was all around me.  I feared for I could hardly breathe.  Finally, I stood where I was and said, "It is okay, God; it is enough just to know you are with me in the darkness."  In the silence moments passed when all of a suddenly seemingly out of nowhere, I could see a tiny sliver of light appear in a corner.  I walked toward it and found the light, bright and shiny.

That was 28 years ago this week.  I had been diagnosed with two kinds of breast cancer and was due for surgery December 26.  Without surgery the doctor said I would die.  My life was changed that day not because of the cancer but because of the darkness.

So strange our perceptions, beliefs and understandings.  So often we live in boxes of our own making believing we control our destiny and that life pretty much unfolds the way we make it.  We expect God to show up a particular way, at a particular time to do a particular thing.  The miracle is that God does indeed come but in an unexpected way.

When I think back upon those scary days, I am always drawn back to the darkness and the light rather than the diagnosis, the surgery, the complications, the long recovery and the pronouncement that I was free of cancer.  In the darkness I met you and you welcomed me to your side.  You stayed with me then and have never left.

I will

never forget

your living presence

that day,

Holy God.

It may

have been

the most

inspiring day

of my life.

I return 

there frequently

just to

dwell with you

once again.  

Yours, Andrea