Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Dear God,

A thorn in the flesh, a thorn in the flesh. It never goes away; it simply repositions itself. I can feel the sting, yet I can't seem to rid myself of it. Is this an intentional annoyance needed to teach me something?

I learned a long time ago that responding to something the same way will lead to the same results every time. I also learned if you don't like the results, then stop responding the same way time after time. I try different methods but the results appear the same. What am I to do?

Surrendering everything into your hands is difficult. I can surrender many things, situations, people to you, but some things I hang on to as if to surrender them will lead to my demise. What am I failing to see? Why do I hang on so tenaciously?

I want your will, the will of God. I want to live in a daily rhythm that seeks your will in my life and ministry. I want to be guided, to follow, yet I seem not to always do it well. I really need your help, dear God. Trusting in every area to allow your perfect will to be fulfilled is what I desire. Teach me, I pray.

I run to you
the first sign
of trouble.
I speak your name.
But do I really listen?
Are you speaking
and I have blocked
your answer?
Help me,
dear Lord,
to listen,
really listen,
then obey.
You have
my attention.

Love, Andrea