Monday, April 14, 2008

Dear God,

I see what you are doing! You have drawn the net of doubt higher. When a doubt rises within me, I have barely a distance to go before I hit faith. No black hole here!

How much you revealed yourself at church yesterday. People coming back to worship from vacation, two new couples telling me how much they loved the church and how they would be back, a beautiful testimony, a good spirit, and the retreat men coming in late to join us for worship. And then later another good man agreed to give a faith testimony next Sunday and my two co-horts in crime wrote the two day workshops for the retreat later in the afternoon.

I am always amazed but never shocked by all your attention to detail. You really care, don't you? I mean REALLY! You show it again and again. Your love for your church is especially moving to me. In our ups and downs you remind us that you are in charge, that your love for your church transcends all our love for it. I am so joyous to see it.

This week will be a test to my stamina. A two day conference, facilitating two workshops, preparing and facilitating two retreat experiences the rest of the week. I hope my flock got the memo that no hospitalizations or deaths were allowed this week. Yet, this is your work. I simply follow you wherever you lead.

Standing in your shadow
makes me realize
the wonder
of this thing
called faith.
I cannot step outside
of you.
I am captured forever.
I choose to play,
to live,
to learn,
to listen,
to follow
all the days
of my life.
And giving praise
to you,
writing these letters
of love
brings great delight
to my soul.
Blessings to you,
my Beloved.

Love, Andrea