Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Dearest God,

I love the quiet. Sitting in bed, the ceiling fan clicking above me, there is something so right when all is quiet. The sounds of the spirit can be heard from within.

For so many years I ran from silence. Couldn't risk hearing its voice. I could only imagine, speculate what would be found in the quiet. Monster voices. Creepy things. Something that would snatch me, telling me frightening things.

But just the opposite occured. In my intense fear, I entered in and what I found was a world waiting for me. A world of sacred space, large open rooms in which to wander, light all around, a universe in which to sing and dance. Without the clutter of artificial sound, I could see and hear, feel and experience peace, harmony, unity, grace, and love. While fear would draw my world down into a tight ball, quiet would open it up, resuming a normality that I suspect was planted within me, every human a long time ago. There I can take a respite from the sounds of busyness, incessant electronic noise, and even the sound of human voices. I can actually listen for your voice.

Now I cannot imagine my world without silence. Quieting my own voice in order to hear yours is now my preference. Silence gives me life, makes me slow down, draws my attention to spiritual matters and ultimately gives me tools and resources that I would not possess otherwise. In those moments I meet you. I draw in the breath of your spirit. I find my true identity and I revel in our time together. These prized moments are my favorite of all moments.

And then I write. The words come to me because I know their Source. These early morning encounters feed my soul and hopefully my soul feeds others with life-giving hope.

This morning in the quiet, I find myself just wanting to say thank you.

In the early morning,
when the sky
is black
and the neighborhood
is still sleeping,
I find you
waiting for me.
In these
precious moments
I find
spiritual food
for my soul.
I feed
on you
before
I feed
on anything else.
Spiritual nourishment
strengthens my body,
mind and spirit.
In whatever condition
I first
find myself,
a change
can take place
within me.
And I am
most grateful.

Love, Andrea