Saturday, December 13, 2008

Dearest God,

A friend stopped in today unexpectedly. He sat at my table sampling my goodies for tomorrow's open house. He smiles easily although I know under the surface there is a deep sadness.

I have come to the awareness that some things are just plain not fixable by others. As much as one may try, including me, there are times when I have to stand by and watch pain happen. I can be a comforting presence through prayer but I simply cannot change most things. Sometimes I allow the pain of others to overwhelm me, especially if they are persons I love very much. I have to surrender that pain to you.

This has been a difficult few months. So much has happened. And the pain I have witnessed has at times threatened to undo me. During these times I realize that faith is all that holds a person. Stress, sorrow and anguish can damage a soul if allowed to run rampant; however when faith is allowed inside, all these subside, giving trust a chance. And when trust comes, peace is possible.

I realize more and more that all of life is about faith and trust. Trials come, they are part of life. Yet, when we are hit, our ability to take hold of your hand is enhanced. You call out to us. If we are open to your voice, truly open, then we can rise up to any occasion trusting you to lead us during the storm and out of it onto dry land. When we are able to breathe in the air of trust, our faith is strengthed and our courage is renewed.

This life lesson is teaching me more and more about you.

I live
in your promise
of loving presence.
You are
the source
of help
and strength.
As I
run to you,
Most Patient Parent,
I learn
your ways.
Life is not
about me
but rather
about your will unfolding
in the world.
I take
great delight
in knowing you.

Love always, Andrea