Monday, May 11, 2009

My dearest God,

Quietude, silence, a listening for the spirit speaks profoundly to my soul. In quieting my own words, thoughts and images, I hear the sounds of faith. My soul is at peace. I breathe in the air of the spirit. I revel in your presence.

I spent years filling my world with sound. Silence, in this case, the absence of sound, scared me to death. I imagined that the world of silence had scary monsters running around waiting to grab someone, in particular me. But then I found the true silence, a world of quiet peace and hope, a serene environment where the possibilities of a divine/human relationship are revealed. I entered this new world and found myself at home.

When I am overcome with grief, disappointment or sadness, I retreat to this sacred place. I know I am always welcome and I find my troubles lessened in their ability to disturb my soul. I listen for your voice of hope, encouraging me to step forward in faith. Often I lay out a list of my own sins asking for your divine guidance. I do not want to be left in my own muck.

In this quiet place I walk with you, not the other way around. I know the name of the leader and it is not me. We walk in tranquil paths and I am released of my fears and sorrows. I fill up with hope and continue my journey.

Sacred Leader,
I want
to always
follow you.
I want
to get
my marching orders
from you.
I want
to carry
your presence
with me
to dispense
as you
see fit.
No one
can possess you
but what
I discover
is something
to be shared
and I gladly
share it.
I am
profoundly joyful
in your
loving presence.

Love, Andrea