Sunday, May 17, 2009

My dearest God,

In this life how do we prevent hurting people? How do we keep ourselves safe emotionally and yet help other people?

I have always been concerned for people. It is my nature. I do not try to hurt anyone deliberately but I do sometimes. When I give so much of myself away, I leave myself bare and vulnerable. Too much too long and I empty my vessel. In such moments I can't blame anyone else. I have to take full responsibity for my emptiness.

I know I need to keep myself full of you, Lord. As long as my vessel is full of you, I can love others more and more. In the process of remaining full of you, I can give myself to others.

I need a balance, Lord. I would never want to be full of you and keep you just for myself. What is the use? What good would I be to the world if I hoarded all your blessings and failed to care for those brothers and sisters around me?

Teach me
to care,
dear God,
care for myself
while caring
for my
brothers and sisters.
I long
to do
your will,
to follow
your plan,
to fulfill
your purpose
in my life.
I can
only do so
by listening
to you,
by following
your lead.
You are
the Source
of all things,
Precious Redeemer.
May I tap
more and more
into your
living power.

Love, Andrea