Thursday, November 12, 2009

Dearest God,

I awakened in the middle of the night, troubled by a negative thought. I turned on the light and grabbed hold of my CD player and tape. After plugging in the earphones, I laid back, turned out the light and listened as the music spoke of love, faith, hope and beauty. One song after another played until I was filled with you. I unplugged the earphones, placed them on the nightstand, turned off the light and breathed a breath prayer of gratitude.

As the morning dawned I thought about my restless night before the music. I reflected upon my sadness and how I had turned to you. When I considered your goodness to me, tears formed and slid down the sides of my temples, dripping on the sheets. I recalled to mind that fullness that I felt believing that you had filled me with yourself and how that fullness had not only calmed my spirit but also allowed my body to rest and fall into sleep.

And then another image came to me. It was a picture of the infilling of your peaceful spirit into my own body and mind and how that fullness was you. I felt my tears slipping from my eyes and I thought if that fullness was you, then the very tears that spilled out were yours. If that was true, then is it possible that the spirit of your peace that moved from inside myself could move outward to the greater world? That would mean that the very act of weeping with thanksgiving could allow your peace and goodness to bless others. Is it possible, dear God, is it?

Every gracious act
of love,
O God,
blesses me.
The very thought
that your blessing
to me
could bring blessing
to others
is a blessing
in itself.
As I pilgrim
my way
in life,
please make
me aware
of the consequences
and implications
of your blessings.
Make me
a partner
in your goodness,
I pray.

Love, Andrea