Thursday, November 19, 2009

My dearest God,

How do we know if the road before us is one that will lead to peace or to disaster? The path may look promising, lush green grass growing alongside, pools of clear water, sunshine and blue skies; yet, how can we know if it is the right road for us?

In the morning mass we heard the same scripture we have heard all week from Jeremiah 29:11, 12 and 14. "God has a plan for you, a plan for peace and not disaster." I must confess I did not come looking for peace. I came to discover your will for my life. I spent three days outlining my plan to you; you ignored me. Thank you.

I believe that that beautiful path I described can lead to peace and to disaster. If I retain my ability to be master of my own life, then I risk the road to disaster. I only know yesterday and today. I do not know my tomorrows. When I determine which road to take, I do so knowing what I know right now. I am not privy to the future. What I do know, however, is that you hold the future, not as a threatening cloud over me but rather as a gentle reminder of your presence.

As I cling less and less to my own will and more and more to yours, I have a greater chance of moving toward peace.

You are Master
of the Universe,
Gracious and
Loving God.
As my love
for you grows
and my trust
grows with it,
the more
I fall
in line
with your purpose
for my life.
When I retired,
Lord,
I had
a hint
of an idea
what to do
with myself
in the future;
yet, I am
not sure
I took much
into account
of your desire
for me.
How can
I ever
be a witness
to the Almighty
if I
do not
sit, wait
and listen?
Living in silence,
that glorious
sacred realm
of mystery,
I learn
as you
teach me.

Gratefully, Andrea