Saturday, November 14, 2009

Dear God,

I leave in a few hours for the desert mountain monastery where I will once again turn my heart toward you. There I will set everything aside, personal comfort, my own will, my daily responsibilities, my hopes and dreams to listen for your voice. I will recall to mind all the times you have called me to quiet solitude so that you could speak to me.

These last days I have been restless, feeling like I was killing time waiting for these prized moments. It is true what the psalmist says that our hearts are restless until they rest in you. I have been restless although I have been in some of the most beautiful country in the world. Perhaps you have been preparing me and I have felt the shifting going on.

I pray, O Lord, that I will be able to listen. I pray I will exemplify courage and strength. I pray that my love for you will grow and my willingness to follow your will will become more steadfast. I pray that my devotion will reach your heart. I pray I will allow you to make the necessary changes in me.

I remember how servants of old went to the mountain looking and longing for you. I remember how they took nothing with them because they believed you would provide everything they needed. Lives were changed, nations were changed; perhaps the whole of humanity was changed in some way. I would never consider myself a prophet or a saint but I do have a heart for you. I pray I will be like these who believed you held the divine mysteries in your hand. I want always to follow you, to listen, to be obedient and pliable, to permit you to remould and reshape me at your will. May it be so.

God of Infinite Wisdom,
Giver of Life,
Lover of all Humanity,
guide me,
I pray
along my journey
of faith.
Hold my feet
to the ground
but let
my spirit soar
with you.
Whisper to me
the secrets
of the universe
where I
may learn
at your feet.
Teach me
your ways
that I
might exhibit
your likeness,
that I
will be
a light
that shines
in the darkness.
Help me
to light
the fire
of your spirit
in others,
I pray.

Love always, Andrea