Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Dearest God,

I'm nearing completion on my spring spruce up in my home. What a job! Cleaned windows, oiled preserved wood, freshly painted rooms (not quite finished), new carpet, squeaky clean bathrooms, user-ready patio and screened in porch, just a few more hours and I'm done. I haven't cleaned like this in three years. Aah!

I'm working on the garden. I still have most of the edging to do. A lot of pruning needs to be done. But it too is looking beautiful.

But what I've noticed is that my time has been focused more on cleaning and sprucing up than on my writing you. In some ways I've left you in the basement near my computer. Oh yes, I love to communicate with you, but I haven't been as faithful as in the past.

How easy it is to allow other things to take your place. Sometimes it requires no effort at all, I'm sorry to say. I don't like the fact that I can walk away and busy myself elsewhere, leaving you behind. I feel shame and sorrow.

I want to begin my day fresh and new. I want to put you first, again. I want to stay with you in my writing. I want our conversation to be the first in my day.

Dear God,
sometimes I struggle
with my promises
to you.
Please forgive me.
Teach me your ways,
again.
Never let me
stay adrift.
I don't like
being alone
on my raft,
especially during stormy weather.
I want to start again.

Love, Andrea