Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Dear God,

I woke up full this morning. I had been carrying weariness, tears from nowhere, some anxiety. I knew I did not want to carry it any longer. So I put on my CD, Songs from the Inner Child. There is a mystery in this album, one that draws me into myself. I find my own inner child and I give her attention. I listen to her, give her opportunity to express herself. This morning as the music played she danced. She danced and she danced. And in her dancing she released her tears, anxiety and weariness. Before I left for work she was calm and so was I.

Dancing with you, before you, prepared my spirit for my day's work. I uncluttered my soul, robbing my soul of its anguish. I let go, surrendered. Nothing bad. Just overwork and lots more to do. I have worked way too many hours at church and home. So many good things are happening and I allowed them to stick inside my soul. Not a good thing. I do have to let good things go once in a while too. Or I get overwhelmed.

My day went well as I trusted you. During the day I met with a wonderful student who wants to work her field education with us. I was excited. You are working this out too. When my work was concluded I drove into my garage at 5:55 p.m. I walked in the door crying out, "Five to six, it's five minutes until 6:00 and I'm home! I'm home! It's grand." I walked into the bedroom and put on my comfy pjs. I cried, "I've got on my pjs. It's grand. It's truly grand!" Then I made myself a 12 minute meal of spaghetti and tomatoes the way my mom made it. I put all my food on a tray and walked into the bedroom. I shouted, "I've got a real meal, a spaghetti dinner and I'm eating in bed! It's grand; it's wonderful!" I realized it was still daylight and I was home. I danced around after I ate and was so grateful.

Today I discovered once again that life is to be lived with you from beginning to end. By listening to you early in the morning I was able go through the day meaningfully. I was able to do my work, minister, think and reflect, meet with people. My dancing allowed me to release pent up emotions. Besides, dancing with you, for you gives me great delight. And that alone brightens my spirit.

When I listen and act, paying close attention to your words, my life changes. My momentary upsets take on a new hue. My transformed perspective allows me to be in touch with the deeper parts of my self who love to tend to spirit causes. And when I act upon your words to me, my life takes on greater meaning and value because I know I have followed your invitation.
I have done what you asked. I have labored in joy.

Glorious Lord,
you have made
my day worthwhile.
You met with me
early in the morning.
We walked together
all day.
Then at nightfall
we shared in celebration.
Simple things
become celebrations.
A day with you
is like no other day
on earth.
I am blessed
beyond measure.

Love always, Andrea