Thursday, September 25, 2008

Dear God,

I've committed to walk with the saints through the best and worst times of my life. I saw the book somewhere and I bought it. I have always known that the saints learned through suffering. I have always wanted to know how it is to meaningfully suffer through hard times, to be intentional about walking humbly and quietly with Christ. The book seems filled with mystery that can help me journey with you.

Each paragraph is full, a gift on each page. I hear the voices of pilgrims speaking, teaching, hoping, crying out, telling. I'm thirsty for their news. I need to know what they know; yet, I come quietly and humbly before them to honor their walk, their struggles, their desire for you.
I long to deepen my faith, preparing my heart and soul to follow more closely. My own desires are nothing when I fully trust you. I set aside my wants to pick up yours.

All the way around these are troubling times and what I know of these spiritual saints is that trouble called for a closer walk. As I awakened this morning, I heard your words, "Look upon them with compassion." I must look at others through the lens of compassion and at myself the same way. What other way is there when looking through the lens of Christ?

I have so much to learn, so much to surrender, so much to see. I am like a little child with a mustard seed faith. At times the seed looks so small, so tiny in my hand. But my mind tells me this small seed has great potential. With a little nurturing it will grow great in the Father's hand.

I am
but a dot
on this great planet,
a teeny tiny dot
with an
even smaller dot faith.
Yet,
I welcome
my status
as a dot
in your creation.
May every breath
I breathe
be a drawing in
of your loving power.
May I release
every bit
of doubt, fear, and resentment
making space
for the Breath
of Life.
May I live
for you,
Lord;
may I live
for you
like the saints.

Love, Andrea