Monday, January 19, 2009

Dear God,

Tomorrow we will swear in our new president. History will be shaped tomorrow. Tears will flow as African Americans swell with pride that their day has come. Indeed! It will be a great day!

That change will make possible more change. Already our world looks dramatically different than when I was a girl. I celebrate most of the change.

I am in that dramatic process of change myself. In some ways I find myself in a cocoon thinking, reflecting, deciding. I like the warmth inside for I find you inside with me. We talk. Hopefully I listen, at least sometimes. I have to shed some parts of myself this year. I have to let go, release those pieces into the past, realizing that I too have to change. Some change will be painful, oh so painful. But I realize that pain does not have to dictate my life. I do not have to suffer forever.

I go back to yesterday's letter acknowledging that trust in you and in myself is key to my decision making. I must go to you for guidance. I must trust your effort to change and transform me. I must stand with you taking in that gentle, kindly love that only you can provide. I must be willing to trust in you during the painful moments of decision. I must hold steady as I allow the winds of change to overtake me blowing me in new directions perhaps all at one time.

Today is yet another lesson in learning how to trust. I must trust you in the rapidly changing times for even the times are subject to your hand.

Like the song goes,
"Lead me,
guide me
along the way.
For if you
lead me,
I cannot stray.
Lord, let me
walk each day
with thee.
Lead me,
O Lord,
lead me."
Make it so,
Lord,
make it so,
I pray.

Love, Andrea