Monday, March 16, 2009

Dear God,

Sometimes it is hard to say what I need to say. I lack courage. I dance all around it and only in the end do I finally say the words. It's hard, really hard. But today I said it straight out. Felt good.

For a long time I prayed for clarity. Clarity to see things. Clarity to know things. Clarity that steps out of the gray cloud, the muddy waters, the misty fog. I have clarity now; however, once a person has clarity then another challenge presents itself. Action.

I am grateful for a clear picture. But a clear picture is not always what I want it to be. A clear picture illumines the truth. And the truth is not always easy to see but living in the darkness, not being able to get at the truth is much more difficult.

Watch what you pray for, someone once said. And it is true. I have prayed for a clear vision and a clear vision is what I have gotten. I know what I need to do.

Fog Lifting God,
you have answered
my prayer.
But your answer
is painful,
yet I know
its truth.
Help me,
O Lord,
to follow,
to act,
to be faithful,
to be obedient,
I pray.

Love, Andrea