Sunday, March 1, 2009

Dearest God,

Today warm tears spilled from my eyes as we sang in church. The past, present and future opened up for me and I was overcome with tears.

I have learned through the years that tears are a precious resource. When life is building up inside me, when I feel I am about to blow, tears release my emotions. They just spill out. And I have to let them have their say.

Just yesterday I listened to our Futuring Task Force give their reports. I was so proud of them. Each group had done a thorough job. They had prayed and followed your lead. They had used their imagination and their skills to come up with differing options for our church. Going in I had one idea and when they finished, I realized they had opened me to other options. One year. They have worked one year on this and each had given evidence of their love for this church. I stood and acknowledged my pride in them. Tears came then too. A different kind of tear.

My tears have a cleansing, healing quality to them. They are a gift really whether I am sad, happy, perplexed, joyous or angry. They are an indicator of what is inside. What I also know is that I can always entrust my tears to you.

Faith causes
me to cry
sometimes.
Why?
Because
my ability
to see faith
in circumstances
is a gift.
And a gift
of this magnitude
deserves my attention,
my gratitude.
Thank you,
dear God,
for tears
that express
my deepest emotions.

Love, Andrea