Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Dearest God,

Getting my life in order is both a joy and a challenge. Making a checklist, doing the tasks, orchestrating the plan and following through seem like simple things to do but not so. I am doing all those things because I need to. However, it is sometimes difficult.

Change is coming. My life is being changed. What I have been about these last years has taught me that often change comes when least expected. My soul has been in a change mode for a long time. Your work in me has brought fruit although I am sure I am at times a hard nut to crack. My view of life and myself has changed. I am not the same person I was twenty five years ago, not even five years ago, a year ago, a few months or weeks ago. My life is changing.

Although some change is more difficult than others, it is my earnest hope that I am trusting you more. As I trust more, I am enabled to do things I thought I could not do. I am finding that I am capable of doing more than I ever thought possible. The more I trust, the more able I become.

The lessons
of life
teach me
more about you,
dear God.
Each lesson
leads me
back to you.
Each life experience
causes me
to look,
to evaluate,
to ponder
the meaning
of my life
at the moment
of my creation.
Am I
my own?
Or do
I belong
to you?
Is my purpose
my own
or yours?
Is the fulfillment
of my purpose
to my credit
or yours?
Is my place
in the universe
your plan
or mine?
Let your change
occur within me,
dear God,
let your change
occur within me.

Love, Andrea