Monday, June 1, 2009

Dearest God,

I sat on the floor in my cluttered, chaotic study filled with boxes, papers, files, books, trash, trinkets, and sacks of clothing for a local charity. I lighted the candle in the friendship circle on my coffee table altar. I put on my music. My angel cards sat nearby. The truth angel chose me. I let my tears come as I looked around the room.

Change and transition may be necessary elements in life but they are not easy. A part of me wants to cry out for this transition to be complete. But another part of me wants it to remain where it is because I will have to say goodbye. Saying goodbye is so painful and yet I believe by faith that new life awaits me whatever that may look like. At this moment I have no idea what shape it will take. I know I am learning to trust you more and more for my future.

Hello and goodbye
are intrinsically
tied together.
For every hello
there is
a goodbye.
And for
every goodbye
there is
a hello.
Whether hello
or goodbye
teach me
to trust you,
Beloved Christ,
I pray.

Love, Andrea