Saturday, December 5, 2009

My dearest God,

Learning to remain steady when doubt threatens is a real challenge for me, dear God. Yet, simultaneously you bring to my mind another time when holding the course was your strong call to me. Only then doubt loomed large like one great genie released from his bottle. Daily, sometimes several times daily I heard your whisperings. "Hold steady. Keep your eye straight ahead. Chart the course. Don't oversteer too far to the left or to the right."

At this moment nothing so large as the church is at stake. However, in my personal life, the stakes are high. Throughout these last months I have experienced many life lessons. You have set me down and taught me as the great teacher. Although many of the lessons were difficult and painful, I listened and learned. I am applying my learnings to my present life.

Listening, learning and leaning seem to be three valuable characteristics of a person trusting you. If I listen and learn then I will just naturally lean toward you, anticipating your guiding word and your guiding hand nudging me forward. As I take those steps of faith, I recognize how important it is to remain steady even when I feel a bit shaky.

As I return to days gone by where I followed your leading, I can now celebrate the wondrous grace involved in the whole process. I can look back to the troubled waters at the church and how our boat was caught in a storm. I remember how we began to take on water and things looked grave. But when I heard your voice and remembered my own calling at the helm, I trusted you, listened, and followed you until the sun shone once again. In my remembering, I find strength for today.

Guide me,
Great Captain.
Teach me,
O Great Teacher.
My life
is in
your hands.
And so are
my wonderings.
I am yours,
O Lord,
I am yours
forevermore.

Love, Andrea