Sunday, March 20, 2011

Dear God,

Eighteen months ago you shook me to my core with a mind-altering vision of the pillar of bitterness that had built up in my soul. I held on to the living room railing as I watched and felt you unseat that tall, wide weight and then vacuum every granule of the nasty stuff. You rid me of obstacles that had held me back from healing and wholeness.

I remember how it was following your divine action. You opened the doors and windows to my heart, soul and mind. I recall the radiant light shining through the windows and the curtains gently moving in your spirit breeze releasing refreshment, hope, peace, love and faith. In the days following I prayed that I would never again allow bitterness to take root within me.

Since that time I have been very aware of your mission to keep me from harm. Daily I experienced the wonders of being filled with your mercy and goodness. As I offered up my praise we smiled together knowing you were the great source of my restoration and renewal.

With great love and tender care you revealed two names and faces, persons with whom I had felt hurt, anger, and resentment. You whispered to me my need to cleanse, to let go, and to surrender feelings I have held on to for the last few years. As one of them would appear before me, I prayed asking for your gentle guidance. I took small steps toward one without any sense of an outcome. I simply did what you asked of me. Today I took a step toward the other. In both cases we are on the road toward recovery and reconciliation in whatever form it may present itself.

The life lesson you provided me is one of trust. You have shown me how to trust you to help me. You have stretched out your hand, given me visions, offered me help and challenge and then opened a pathway toward change and transformation. You have shown me how courage is really trust in action. You have reminded me that your love and my faith are greater than any hurt that exists. You have taught me to always keep the door of faith open so that I may at any time in any situation act when you call me.

Your love
is infinite,
your mercy
ever flowing,
Gracious God.
My own heart
overflows with thanksgiving
and praise.
Thank you
for all
you do
in my life.
I can't begin
to list
all the
many graces
you have
given to me.
I only know
my heart
is full
of love
for you.

Always, Andrea