Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Dear God,

When I rely solely upon my own efforts and my own will, I get more of what I already have.  That may be okay but it's limited.  Perhaps that is one of the reasons faith is very appealing to me.  I am challenged more.  I receive more.  I experience a better quality of life.  I rely upon a heavenly source to transform me.  I discover my own flaws and imperfections and need for change.  I have resources to assist me in doing my part to make a better world around me.

I confess I am already blessed. How much more do I need?  Do I really require heaven's best in order to be faithful?  I figure the answer is both yes and no.  Do I need you to do more in order for me to experience the joy of heaven?  No!  You have already done so much for me.  Yet, why would I want to live a purely human experience when a relationship with you offers a deeper, richer, and more meaningful daily experience.  If I am destined to live a gospel life for eternity, then I need to make changes in my life in order to prepare my
own self for you.  I can't do that on my own.

As I consider your many gifts, I realize the wonders of faith, its mystery and pointed questions.  I reflect upon the goodness of your grace and I become aware of the expectation of living a life of faith.  I am small, flawed, selfish, and bent on my own will when I am on my own.  But with you, aaaah, with you I am better because I know how small I really am, how tainted my life is with my own selfish ways, and my desire to be the center of my own world.  Only with you do I recognize how grace works, what it does in my soul, and how it can reshape not only me but those around me and those with whom I lead to you.  I need the potter's hand remolding me into something new, something beautiful for you.

Ever-Creating God,
lead me
to you
so that
I learn more
of what
I need
to do
to be
a child
of faith.
Let me
bless you
as I surrender
my will
for yours.
Recreate me
in your image,
I pray.

Love, Andrea