Friday, October 24, 2008

Dear God,

Barbra Streisand's rendition of "I Wonder as I Wander" is a theme song for my spirit. I do wonder as I wander, thinking about life unfolding all about me, around the world. I wonder as I wander through the church halls, asking myself questions. Do people come to church just to get a friend fix? Do they seek something just for their own query? Do they use the church for their own end? Or is the church where we come to bring God a gift? I wonder as I hear people say they are not fed. Fed what? Have you starved all week and expect something on Sunday morning? Or have you been fed all week long, you know you've been blessed and now you want to give something back?

I wonder as I wander through my home and relationships. What am I being fed? What am I feeding others?

I wonder as I wander through the world of your spirit. Have I reached the stage of being fed meat or am I still eating baby food of the spirit? Has my spiritual life matured to the place where I can gnaw on the meatier issues of your spirit or must I remain a child eating simpler foods? I wonder as I wander deeper in faith. Am I doing what you want? Am I following your guidance? Am I reaching higher awareness of your spirit in the creation? I wonder.

I wander frequently,
O God,
wondering about you.
I sometimes
wander astray,
losing my way.
Sometimes I wander
into new places,
unfamiliar to me,
looking for you.
Am I to remain
a wanderer, Lord?
Will I settle
one day,
knowing I am home?
Will I
lay down
my backpack
filled with travel tools?
Will I know
for sure
I am where
I am intended
to be?
Lead me, Lord,
lead me
in my wanderings
and wonderings,
I pray.

Love, Andrea