Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Dear God,

The sound of bells tolling calls my heart to attention. Who am I changes to Whose am I. I listen, fall back, each sound recalling to mind the hundreds of bells I have heard throughout my lifetime. Churches, always churches, the call of Jesus.

As a simple follower, I am momentarily stopped from my worries or concerns; I come to attention to the Lord of the universe. I pause and quietly remember your goodness to me. My being realizes this is yet another moment to celebrate and praise you. Your many kindnesses have softened my heart making it easier to steal my attention. I smile.

So often I go on a hunt for you as if I am going to see more than I've seen before. Like I need more, like what I have is not enough. I forget this life is not about accumulating more but rather reveling in what I have been given. More? Do I really need more? Or is what I have already experienced more than enough for a lifetime?

Yes, I want more of you. I admit it. But I know that until I am content with what I have received at your hand, I may indeed not receive more. My challenge is to sit with what I have, knowing and experiencing its value once again. I have so much. My bucket is overflowing with your grace and mercy. The scent of forgiveness warms my heart; for what value can I place on it? And love, the wrappings of agape teach me there is no greater love.

I hear the bells tolling, a reminder of whose I am and what I have been given. No more is needed.

You have stolen
my heart,
O Great God
of the universe.
I am
but a small child
in faith,
one who has not learned yet
the great value
of what
I already possess.
Attune my heart
and mind
to you
so that
I shall live
every day
in the light
remembering
and giving back
through devotion
and thanksgiving.

Love, Andrea