Thursday, October 9, 2008

Dear God,

I feel the weight, the burden of much to do. So many little details hanging loose, needing to be tied up, tied to something, completed. Some days I carry a great deal. The pack on my back is heavy and full; it threatens to weigh me down. But I keep on walking.

Do I pause throughout my day to attend to your spirit leading? Do I notice you in all the scenes around me? Do I listen carefully to the spirit's call? Do I stand quietly in silence waiting for you? Do I recognize that life is all about the spirit's movement?

I believe it is possible to walk through a 24 hour day without a moment's notice of your life at work in the world. I believe it is possible to ignore the signs of your presence. I believe it is possible to live a self-centered life without regard to a life bigger than my own. But why would I want to? Why would I be satisfied with stick figures on a white canvas rather than a colorful canvas filled with specialized textures and paints? Why would I want to walk in a world of my own making rather than stop to see what I have not? Why would I want to focus on my own voice when I can listen to the sweetest voice in the cosmos?

I sometimes fail to tune in to the great spirit of creation. Yet, my soul notices that I have missed something. I feel the effects of lost time with you. I feel smaller without a sense of spiritual power that allows me to see the world through a mystical lens. I see, yes, but what I see is flat, without the fullness of beauty. I hear, yes, but only what a human is capable of hearing. I miss the nuances, the sounds of the spirit.

Oh Lord, I want my life to be what you have forseen it to be, what you designed it to be, what you know it can be. I want my life to be just as you have made it to be. I want to live fully in your spirit light. I want to be obedient to each day's call, every moment's desire. I want my will to match your own. I want to want what you want.

On this Thursday day, I want to savor what I know and believe of you. I want this day and every day to be a celebration of your life in the world. I want to dance the dance of joy just knowing that I am a child of the King, a child of the universe, a child of the Living God.

Help me
honor you
in my life.
Help me
become truly
a child
of the Living God.
Help me
live life fully
in your spirit.
Help me
delight you
in my attitudes
and actions.
Help me
spread joy,
the joy
of eternity
just because.
Help me
trust more
so I may be
more free
to be
your own creation.

Love, Andrea