Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Dear God,

What wonders are wrought when searching for the God of the universe? What can one find when seeking with a whole heart?

Negativity, an unfounded life without hope and promise for a better future, outcome, or goal constantly eats away at faith and trust in God. It is an emphatic No! to the possibilities you wish to lay at our feet. One does not have to look for anything else; negativity spreads across every arena in life.

Do you remember those periods, those moments in history when I lay in the puddle of hopelessness, of despairing thoughts that a condition or situation, my own to be specific, would never change? Locked into negative thinking, I simply remained in my own muck. Only when you pushed and shoved me, only when you painted a picture for me to see, only when you sang me the song of the universe could I dare move, take one step forward.

Three years ago you showed me a better way. You opened the dark doors and windows to my soul and you let the light shine in. A guiding ray has lead me ever since. Darkness toys with me but light wins my heart.

Yet, there are days when those around me who continue in the dark, who insist that darkness has won and will continue to rule, chip away at my own hope. Like a state of constant darkness, I have to carry my own light, a guiding beam in order to remain atop the dark deep that nips at my heels.

I realize that faith is the answer. Faith that light has the power to overcome every darkness, faith that can conquer the forces of evil that challenge me every day in some way or another. I believe that faith is the added love that you throw in for good measure that helps me rise up, to say a positive word, to live in hope and promise. And faith is, after all, your goodness alive within me whispering the beauty of a life with you.

Holy, holy, holy,
my own heart
cries out.
You are holy.
Your word
is the final word
and the final word
is always hope.
And what is hope?
Hope is
love in the now.
It is taking hold
of that which holds
the universe,
all of creation.
It is the joy
of a life
lived with you.
It is trust,
knowing and believing
that there is
a great reason
to be alive
from the inside out.
It is you
by yet another name.

Love always, Andrea