Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Dearest God,

I am ready. You saw this day months ago. I am certain you ordained it.

There have been times when I made decisions out of weakness. Out of desperation. Out of fear. I lived with all the "What if's." In due time, a very short time really, I realized the brokenness out of which I moved.

Today is different, very different. Knowing myself, trusting in you, living inside my own skin and liking what I see, I am choosing to operate out of strength, your strength. I do not have to settle for less. I do not have to judge myself as "someone lesser than". I do not have to set aside my own needs solely for the needs of others. I have the responsibility to care for this clay vessel out of which I live. You gave it to me when you drew together the tiny cells.

I am clear. I have a clarity like never before. The veils have been lifted. Now, I must live out of this clarity trusting that you have given it to me. At 62 I am finally clear.

Learning to believe
that I am one
of your beloved,
saved by grace
like all the rest,
I know
I can walk
this life path
with a joy
in whom
I am.
I like me
and I am
satisfied with me.
My trust
in you
teaches me
to stand straight
and tall,
knowing
I do not have
to fall back,
to cater
to the needs
of others
whose own needs
don't always
include me.
I am strong
in myself.
You are
my center;
in you
my every need
is met
as I continue
to operate
from a well
that gives me
opportunity to
carry water
to others.
How can I
ever fully
love and serve
and thank you?

Love, Andrea