Thursday, March 19, 2009

Dearest God,

I am preparing for the future. I sense in my soul my new future.

Transitions, those moments when things change and I have to make an adjustment, are times when I realize you are so close. Those openings that don't look familiar call to me inviting me in. Sometimes I don't want to go in. I hang on to the past, to the familiar, the known. Being drawn in I hear and feel the skidding of my feet, not wanting to enter. And yet, you call out and call me in.

Like a tender shoot rising up from the deep, moist, and warm soil I feel vulnerable and scared by all the new things I see and feel. When I am not sure of my changing environment, I sometimes want to crawl back into my cocoon where I know every crack and crevice. But most of all, I cry out to you, "Lord, Lord, help me." I've been crying out for a long time.

Yet, I know in my spirit I have already entered in. I am in the new place you have created for me. Sometimes I cry out for the past; yet, I know this is where I am destined to be. You were with me before and you are with me now. I am not alone.

O God,
Traveling Companion,
I am
never alone
on the journey
of life.
I have only
to turn,
to look
and I find you.
Thank you,
Everlasting God,
for your attention
to the details
of my living.
I could
never travel
without you.

Love, Andrea