Monday, August 31, 2009

Dear God,

Do you remember when I returned from my renewal leave? How I went to the sanctuary and danced in my white dance clothing? I listened to the unfamiliar song twice and the third time I danced. No choreography. No planned entrance. Just a dance from inside my spirit. My friend Linda taped it to include it in my renewal CD. When she replayed it, we decided there was no need to try it again. I had danced my gratitude to you for the amazing blessings you had provided and it was perfect, just what I wanted.

Every time I play the song As a Deer Pants, I see myself dancing again. As an observer to my own mind, I remember the feelings I carried as I danced. My heart was pure. My spirit was overflowing with gratitude. My mind was joyful. There was nothing but grace inside me. I felt beautiful.

The image I hold in my mind is one I keep in front of me. It is a standard for me, one I want to live up to and into. Whenever my mind wanders or I get fixed on a negative thought, I often play the song and I am urged to live as that person once again. I hear the voice calling me to be pure, grateful, blessed and desirous of pleasing you. On that day there was no sin within me, no smudges or smears just pure love for you. The dance was utter devotion.

As I drove
to church
this morning,
I played
the song.
I returned
to my attitude
of praise.
I lifted
my spirit
to you
and my
joy returned.
How glad
I am
to be
part of
your company.

Love, Andrea