Thursday, May 20, 2010

Dear God,

Little by little I am reconnecting with people after years of what I call "people immersion". For a long time I felt as if my whole being belonged to others. As I went through my period of suffering and growth, its counterpart, I never felt I could shake off my responsibility to people around me. As a pastor I rarely gave myself permission to revel in my own being, taking care of myself inside and out. But these last few months I have stepped back, looked around, and drunk in your gracious cup of mercy. I finally began the healing process.

I didn't become a pastor because it was my life's goal. I decided to say yes to your call to serve your church and your people because you asked me. I felt in the deepest part of my soul that you wanted me to change my direction and in turn give opportunities to your people to turn as well. Of course, every journey was a journey toward you no matter the situation.

What I have found is a willingness on your part to redirect my life and the lives of others. Although I have the gift of free will, you still call out to me, giving me additional chances to learn and grow. You are always in the process of transforming your creation. I have witnessed it so many times. I have felt the turn of the pottery wheel in my own life.

I just want
to say thanks,
dear God.
I desire
to bless you
with my
whole being.
I love you
and want
to follow you,
to take
your lead
and go where
you want me
to go.
Give me,
I pray,
the gumption
to daily walk
with you.

Love, Andrea