Friday, October 22, 2010

Dear God,

How do you give us the capacity to love more? When I was pregnant the first time, I wondered if I would have enough love for her. When I became pregnant the second time, I worried about loving her as much as the first. Yet, in both cases my love grew and grew. Now that I have grandchildren, my ability to love has stretched to include them.

Today my love lead me to dress up for Halloween. I put on my black socks with neon green spiders, frosty pajama bottoms rolled to the knee, one black cowboy boot and a multi-colored slipper, a gray shirt and hospital gown with a tutu around my neck. I put on a white mask, an operating room mask and pirate hat. As I moved it into place and drove the last two blocks, my mask jostled and moved and I was driving blind. I jammed on the brakes to avoid having an accident. Love caused me to look silly, act silly and be silly all day with five of my grandchildren.

I know how much I love these young ones in my life. I frequently give them giant hugs to confirm my affection for them. They know for certain that I love them.

But what about you, Lord? Do you know I love you? If I used a measuring cup to figure just how much, what would it be? How much love is in my heart for you?

Let my heart
grow more love
for you,
dearest God.
Stretch it
and then
stretch it
some more.
I want
to love you more.
I want
to affirm
my relationship
to you
by loving you more.
Build my well
of love,
I pray.

Always, Andrea