Monday, July 23, 2012

Dearest God,

Six years, I waited six years to climb out of the dark cave of mystery.  You know how more than six years ago my health spiraled downward.  You remember I had just returned from four and a half glorious months climbing the wondrous mountain of faith.  Truly I soared in the heavenlies during that time.  I observed and heard and experienced more beautiful moments with you than ever before.  Then just a few weeks later I stepped into one of the darkest periods in my life.  And there I remained struggling hard to pull myself up.  Although I hung onto the faith you gave me while on my spiritual renewal leave, I began living life in the space called "I DON'T KNOW".

Today that all changed!  I didn't know there was someone who could help me.  I didn't know the mystery could begin to unravel.  I didn't know the light could shine on that hidden corner of my life.  I didn't know anyone who would want to travel there with me.  I did not know answers could be possible.  I did not know there might be help.  I simply did not know.

A doctor friend intervened for me, not one who could aid me in an answer for my condition but one who could help me find someone who could.  He did mountains of paperwork, pulled apart my six years of medical records and put them in an easy-to-find order for the new doctor to pour through, made the call, went to visit, sat down and discussed my case with him, gave us directions to the hospital two hours away, gave me forms to fill out for the doctor's office, and then took us out for dinner in Boston just a few miles from where we would meet with the doctor so we could relax overnight.  What a special friend.  What a blessing!

I have never met a more wonderful doctor.  Kind, compassionate, bright, focused, helpful, easy-going, and helpful, he gave me all the time in the world.  Nearly an hour we filled in the cracks that were left from questions he had following several tests he had ordered.  He broke problems down to three areas, one where he could not help but made a suggestion for further research with another doctor, one that would require further testing, and another where he found the culprit that causes me so much trouble.  He gave me answers I was looking for, not a cure, but answers, a treatment, and a way out of the darkness.  This generous doctor, so interested in helping me could perhaps be an angel.

Eternal God,
so full
of grace,
I bow down
to you
remembering how
faith and trust
go hand
in hand.
You are worthy
of my
utmost devotion.

Love, Andrea