Thursday, March 5, 2009

Dear God,

I slept all day. An early morning routine medical procedure left me sooooooo sleepy. I don't do well with anesthesia, so I slept all day.

I'm now waiting for a path report. I don't expect any problems. But nonetheless, it's a bit unnerving.

I have put myself in the hands of many people throughout the years. My parents and siblings, friends, teachers, pastors, counsellors, doctors, dentists and other medical personnel. Every time I am put under with an anesthetic, I am trusting the doctors to wake me up when the procedure is over. Generally, I trust them, although a scheduling nurse friend once told me all doctors are not equal. Be choosy, very choosy! She told me.

Every day I have to trust a lot of people. I can't make it through this world without trusting people. Every day I trust my staff to do their work. I trust my family to be safe. I trust other drivers to be responsible on the road. I trust postal workers to deliver my mail. I trust the banks with my money. I trust in you to give me air to breathe and hope to make it through each day and enough joy to keep me believing that life is basically meant to be good. I trust the message I provide each Sunday to be real, authentic and life giving. I have to trust myself, my instincts, those guiding moments when I know there is a Greater Source leading my thoughts. All day long I have to trust.

My hope
is in you,
Lord,
my hope
is in you.
My hope
in you
never disappoints me.
My hope
is really
nothing more
than a smattering
of trust,
a belief
in your reliability,
your love
and faithfulness.
Forgive me
when I fail
to trust
in you wholly.
Stretch my ability
to trust you
more and more.
And help me,
Good God,
I pray
with trusting others
and myself.

Love, Andrea