Wednesday, October 21, 2009

My dearest God,

What a privilege! What joy I feel when I sit at your feet and we talk. Each time I walk into the common room, sit down, turn on the computer and write, I sense your wondrous presence.

Once again we allow the world to overhear our conversation. We share together whatever is on our hearts and inside our souls. Today we are writing my 1500th letter to you.

What is on my heart this morning is my love for you, my devotion and affection. What a mighty God you are! What a loving God! You have poured out your blessings like a gentle rain on thirsty ground. I have swallowed up your agape.

During those 1500 days you pulled me up from utter despair. You cleansed my wounds, pouring the sweet oil of healing upon me. You gave me grace, that unwarranted gift of compassionate mercy. You revealed truths to me. You changed me. You moved me when I was paralyzed in pain. You ushered me into faith when fear had me in its grip. You spoke tender words of encouragement and love to me. You unfolded your mysteries; I watched you at work tending to other souls and to the creation. You sang me lullabies when I could not sleep. You offered me your hand and we danced together. You challenged me, reminding me that I am not yesterday's girl but today's because I am always to be growing. You invited me into a deeper walk of faith when I was resistant, wanting my own way. You laughed at me when I threw tantrums. You smiled when I tried to justify my sins; your warm way made me own up because I knew I would not forever live in judgement. You showed me your glory, those awesome holy moments of sacred design. You flooded me with awe when I recognized your greatness once again. You forgave me when I was ready to receive. You rattled my cage when I was preoccupied with lesser things. You assisted me in imagining new ideas when I had lost every idea. You helped me find joy that I had lost along the way. You rebuilt my fragile soul giving me courage and strength. You opened doors to a wider world when my world became smaller and smaller. You lead me to pools of peace when my mind was in torment and chaos. You talked to me of trust, showing me how to give more and more of my own will to you. You made transparent those areas where I needed to make modifications. You held my hand and walked with me when I took baby steps into newness of life. You inspired me to pray for forgotten people when I felt forgotten myself. You restored my spirit, renewed my creativity and prodded me toward new dreams. You returned hope to me.

What is there to say to such amazing gifts?

I love you,
Lord;
my heart
wells up
in gratitude.
My joy overflows.
I give you
all that
I am.
May my
thoughts and attitudes
be those
of your son
today.
May I live
for you.
Help me pray
all day
as a sign
of my desire
to be
your child,
your servant,
your own.
May I sprinkle
hope, grace,
joy, love and peace
to the world
as a gesture
of my thanksgiving.

Love always, Andrea